0-3 weekend

Well we are on our way back from a three game weekend with out a single win. It is very frustrating to have to sit there and watch the team to not do anything and to lose time after time and not be able to do anything about it. It's not even that I feel as though I could do better this weekend we had very good goaltending, I just want to be able to be a part of the team I guess. We had three scouts this afternoon at our game and Coach said that not a single one of them asked about any of our players.... Not one of them, that is not good at all. I am really glad that our bus this weekend is so nice, I actually have wireless on the bus so it is really convenient.

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I have been growing so much in my faith and in myself just as a person and my character. I really have been able to see such a difference from the way I think to the way I hold myself and I can deal with so much more since I have been out here simply because the Lord has really put me here to do such things, the devil has been out here much more than I would like to admit but he has been, God has been there with me very much so keeping me true and strong giving me the power to carry on and do things the way that is honoring to him. Mom gave me a very good quote or short story. "the shepherd sometimes has a sheep that continues to wonder off and get lost. The shepherd always goes, finds it and brings it back but obviously he wishes that it was different. Eventually the shepherd will break one of the sheep's legs so that it cannot walk or wonder, he carries it day after day on his shoulders, laying it in green pastures and bringing it to calm waters. When the sheep's leg is finally healed enough to walk on the shepherd will splint it if it is needed for extra help and let it go as it did before. The sheep has now become so accustom to being around the shepherd constantly that it no longer wonders." This story has truly helped me to stay strong and positive during my time out here so thank you Mom. I am crippled and am healing, when my shepherd allows me off of his shoulders again I will both be more dependent on him but also much more appreciative of everything that I have. :)

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Emily and I have both been struggling with frustration and anger of me not playing, we have been able to take our turns to calm each other down and help each other out haha. We make a great team especially in that aspect. I love her so much but she is also very much my best friend and she knows what I to say every time to make me smile or make me calm down it is fantastic. :) Baby I love you so much, it is all apart of the master plan that we are not meant to know, we are meant to trust and just know that the path that is laid before us by our Lord and Savior is the very best path that we could possibly take. :) I love you.