EXCITED!!!

So tomorrow is our first game!!! That is crazy!!! I'm nearly one hundred percent positive that there will be video coverage online starting at seven my time. If you just go to the Tomahawks home page there is a link to listen live, but when I go there the guy had already put up a pregame insider video up so I am hoping that he will do a video as well. I am so stoked for it. I will not be playing nor will I be dressing tomorrow, so I will be sitting somewhere watching in a nice suit. Which honestly I am just as excited about. I still cannot wait for my shot to go out there, to skate and to show the team, my coach, the fans, the other team and everyone what I am capable of. I know that I belong out here that I can play with these kids I just cannot wait for my shot to prove it. The first game is going to be intense just to watch so I am equally excited, which is weird for me because I usually cannot stand at all to WATCH my team play. but I think in this situation I am happy for it because I get to see what it is all about before I have to be out there at all. I get to watch a whole game see the intensity compared to my team and our practices and I will be able to prepare myself just that much better when I get my chance. I am so excited to go up there tomorrow!

Other than that I didn't do too much today, I tried to get a few more things done on the computer as far as school goes. I really probably could have done a little more with my day, but it was nice to just relax. especially since I woke up with a cold haha, forgot to tell you guys that one. I woke up not being able to really breath. I hadn't slept well most the night, but not till this morning did I realize why. It isn't that big of a deal now, it is still just a cold. Just a big pain in the butt for this to be happening, I have to give all my body can give everyday and now I really can't because my body simply can't give it all. It isn't too bad still like I said so instead of 110% I have to deal with about 105% haha. But still frustrating. I struggled with giving my all mentally earlier, I talked to some of you out there about that, and like I said then I am really truly ok with being cut simply because I am trusting that that is God's plan, I sure do not want to be cut and I am working my hardest to make sure I'm not, But that's the frustrating part about being sick or not being able to do it mentally. When you cannot force yourself to give all you have and more, when you really need to it's a terrible feeling. I do not want to be sent home knowing that there was another level that I could have played at that for some reason my body just wouldn't go to. So having a cold is a burden but not one that I am really looking at as a problem. I can get over a head cold.

Emily helped me a lot actually today, I was being a baby this morning, I hate getting sick because I never get sick. But she was super nice about it and just told me to get up, go to the store and get.... well there was a lot, ah, Cold EEZE, EmergenC, and Mucinex. I got all of those then got a sinus rinse, then I talked to my mom haha she had some more stuff for me to pick up, haha I have so much cold stuff in my room now haha. It is hilarious. She is fantastic I love her so much!!! She even helped me pick out which suit to wear tomorrow! I love you so much sweet heart!!!!

nearly 6 more days!!!!